IDIOT!

I shouldn't have a blog.  I write these long entry's out and then delete them because the result of writing out my feelings is cathartic and when I go back and read the entry it sounds pathetic and so I delete it.  I realize that last sentence is very run-on-ish.  I don't care.  Brief rundown of life...

-School blows, kinda wish I was graduating in the spring.

-Had an unscheduled Fall Break.  It was nice and I don't want to go back to school.

-Spending way too much money I don't have.  It's making me sick.

-Got a flu shot and my arm hurts.

-Scamper was taken to the Humane Society...

-Roommate issues!  Ya'll know who.

-Stressing over Internship and whether or not I get it.

-Drank way too much not last Sat. but the one before and had the worst experience involving alcohol in my life...just the thought of hard alcohol makes me want to puke.

-Pissed that the MN/SD just can't have a decent fall.  It goes from fucking hot to fucking cold in a weeks time.  Why the hell can't it just stay 60-65 for an extended period of time???

-T.I. is the shit.  So is Jem.

-I'm paranoid my computer is going to crash.

-I hate that I am going to have to beg my Dad to help me out with paying for spring break.

-I am not voting.

-Buffaloberries is way too expensive...they use Sara Lee bread for pete's sake!!!!

-Downtown SF is pretty cool and I should go down there more often.

-LHS football is pretty amazing this year...it's fun to watch G do his thing.

-I can't sleep.

-True Blood is my new favorite show.  

-Still waiting to be inspired.

-And I was extremely sad to find out that Cub does not carry berry berry kix anymore.  LAME.

-Is it winter break yet?

xoxoT

Twilight

I'm giving in.  I bought Twilight and am going to read it.  That's all.

1...2...buckle my shoe!

 So as of lately my summer job has involved more and more hours devoted to the nursery at the wellness center.  I hardly mind at all.  I get my kid fix this way.  This past year at school I have vehemently told myself in my mind that I am definitely not even going to think about having kids for a long long time.  It's so strange how one can suddenly change their minds.  All last year I was for the most part enjoying just being a college student, basking in the glory of 12 credits and being able to party on the weekends.  Now, however, it seems all I want to do is sort of push those days behind and forge ahead to the next chapter.  The chapter where I am finally done with school.  The chapter where I finally become truly dependent.  Working in the nursery really stirs up my maternal instinct.  Sometimes all I can think is that this is all I want to do.  I just want to be a wife and mother.  I would love love love to be able to just work part-time when I get married and have kids.  It takes a lot to raise a family and take care of a home.  I want to be able to devote a lot of time and energy to that.  But at the same time I want and know I need a career.

I think this nesting feeling comes from the atmosphere I am in.  I literally feel like a chameleon.  I sort of mold to the situation I am in or the people I am around.  If I were to be back at school now living the college life I'm sure I'd throw these thoughts of marriage and babies right out the window.  I am forever talking about not feeling completely content with any stage of my life.  It seems I am forever waiting for the next part.  I just want it to stop for once in my life.  For once I want to feel completely content in chapter 36 or whatever of my life, all I can do is wait and it is pure agony at times.

My life goals are as simple as, graduate, get a job as an RN, get married, and have kids.  That's it. I honestly believe until those three things happen I won't be completely and fully content with my life.  I am working towards these goals, well, the first one anyway. 5 years of college is a long time.  I think it'll be hard going back for one more when I know most everyone of my friends will be done...oh well.

I realize that no one's life can be perfectly content all the time.  All I ask for is one stretch where I am completely satisfied in all areas of my life.  It's actually a lot to ask for but I believe such a time exists for all of us.  I'm not asking for perfect, just content, peaceful even.

I don't mean for this all to sound bitter and "I hate my life right now" type thing but even when I'm almost content with my life these feelings still linger in the back of mind.  I think I'm just bored right now and it's so easy to think of these things when you are bored.

All I really wanted to say was I enjoy working in the nursery these days.

Boringest entry ever...

So I'm literally a broke ass college student.   S T ruggling to make rent here for May.  Despite this I am still able to make poor poor choices where my check book is concerned.  Danelle and I bought roller blades this weekend.  I'm over the fact that I didn't have the money for them.  I just want you to know that I haven't roller bladed since oh about elementary school.  Our little outing today really went quite well...until the end.  We took it real slow and didn't try to be fancy.  We were feeling pretty good about it until we got back to the parking lot in our apt complex.  The ground is really bumpy with gravel and pot holes.  Because of this I decide it would be much better to go on the sidewalk in front of our buildings.  This was a great idea(extreme sarcasm)  I never noticed that there is an incline the whole way down into our apt complex.  So I am literally flying past buildings and cars and over leftover salt flailing my arms going "oh shit oh shit oh shit."  Finally my building was coming up.  It's the second to last building and after the last building the sidewalk ends.  I knew I had to stop so I tried to use my bake and eventually just flung myself against the brick stones in front of my building to stop.  Finally I turned around and waved my arms at Danelle and told her to get off the sidewalk.  She apparently didn't hear me because before I know it she takes off.  She is wailing the whole way and flailing her arms as well.  She decided to stop by just slamming into me.  We then sat on the wall laughing/crying at our near death experience on blades.  Apparently Danelle  thought I said to just move over to the other side of the sidewalk.  I wish we had it on tape.

Anyway that's probably the most exciting thing that's happened around here lately.  I am completely bogged down with school.  By the end of finals week I will have taken 47 tests this semester.  PUKE.  The next 8 days of my will be devoted to Pharmacology.  We have a test this Friday and then a cumulative final right away on Monday.  Puke puke PUKE!

Ok Peace, I'm gonna go enjoy my last night of freedom before Hell week begins.

11 days and I will be donzo!!!

I like Me.

After doing an activity yesterday in one of my classes I've come to realize that I really like me above everything else.  Well, maybe not" like me" so much but I realized that I take good care of me.  One of the messages throughout the semester has been to "take care of yourself."  You can't take care of other people if you aren't taking care of yourself.  We need to be "filling our buckets" with stuff that replenishes us and makes us a stable and focused person when life or our jobs are too stressed and chaotic.  This book called "The Book of Questions" by Gregory Stock is what made me realize the fact that I take good care of me.  The book is full of extremely thought provoking questions.  Some are ridiculous and make for a good laugh,  but others are very real and provide great ethical dilemmas.  One questions we did in class was something like this: "If you were in a relationship with someone and they said they'd commit suicide if you didn't marry them, but you knew you would never be happy being with them would you marry them or not?"  

Umm I had no problem saying no I would not marry them.  I don't mean to make my answer sound that easy because it certainly would not.  From either decision you will experience a depressing life.  Each one would cause a certain amount of pain.  But, ultimately which one do you feel you have the most success overcoming and moving on from?  If you married them your life would be a depression.  You'd be filled with so much anger and resentment and you would never be happy.  If you didn't marry him you'd have the horrifying experience dealing with their suicide, guilt that it was your fault.  Either choice brings up feelings of guilt, anger, and depression.  But what one could you heal from?  What one would take care of you?  Saying no.  If they committed suicide because you did not mary them that is their messed up problem not yours.  No matter how guilty I felt I don't think I could ever truly think, "this was my fault" and each day that feeling of guilt would decrease until it became a seriously tragic event that happened in my life but not necessarily too me and certainly not because of me.   It is not selfish to act on your feelings if keeping them inside damages you.  A person cannot help what they feel.  No one can ever look down on you or make you feel inferior because of your feelings.  Keeping yourself complete inside comes before completing the insides of others.  I am not however, saying you can't be selfish with your feelings.

So, from this, I decided that I take good care of me because I will absolutely not live my life with any lingering feelings of hurt, guilt, jealousy, depression, anger, or resentment from any person.  I will confront them head on and do what needs to be done to keep me whole.

Spring Break

I'm here to tell you exactly what Spring Break is about.  It's not about going to Mexico, Florida, or anywhere else warm and partying yourself silly.  Spring Break is about getting done with that last test and feeling the world being lifted off your shoulders.  It's about anticipating the drive home (whether or not it's home home or your apt.) to do ABSOLUTELY FREAKING NOTHING.  And that is what I did last night.  I came home put my stuff down and proceeded to change into sweatpants and sweatshirt, popped some popcorn and me and my loyal-almost-on-the-verge-of clingy-dog Riley settled down and watched The Perfect Man.(Heather Locklear and Hilary Duff).  It was fantastically horrible.  I didn't go out and rent this movie or anything, it was just on tv.  If this were just a normal weekend I would certainly not have wasted 2 hours of it watching that atrocious movie.  This is what I feel spring break is about.  Doing the stupid time wasting stuff you would never allow yourself to do normally.  And now I'm going to continue on into the fluff that is "Gossip Girl"!!!  

Ariane is a ho bag

So I just remembered about that virtually date Ariane game.  After 30 minutes of trying to date her and on about the zillionth try I got her shitfaced and she passed out but I also got her completely naked...and tucked her into bed and then got into bed with her.  The next morning she kicked me out in her see through robe.  I got a 7 out of 10 not bad.  Thanks Adnama for this wonderful game. haha.

Shoot me up

If you need a shot I can give you one!!!!  I successfully gave two shots today...one ID that's like getting a TB test done.  Next was a SubQ which was just an insulin shot.  It was so fun!!  Next week we have to give the IM ones which are intra muscular so in the muscle and they are going to be in the butt!  Today was a fun day to be in the nursing program!  I just thought I'd share this important milestone with you : )

Tops

I always think it's interesting to know what's going on in people's lives at the moment.  Like what they're listening to, tv they're watching, food they're eating, drinks they're drinking, issues that have come up...just random stuff that's new in their lives and somewhat important to them or stressing...So, I'm gonna give you a random list of new discoveries/topics that for the time being are occupying my life that will probably be boring next month...Anyway....Top 10

1. Music of the week

Leona Lewis "Bleeding Love"

Colbie Callait "Realize"

Ferras "Hollywood's Not America"

Webbie "Independent" (It took me 3 times to hear the song before I figured out that's what he was spelling and then another 2 times to actually spell 'independent')

2.  I drink coffee on Wednesday and Friday Mornings

Because I have 8'0clock class those mornings for 3 hours I feel that it's necessary...I tried to go without it the first couple of weeks but I need an extra kick.

3. I have drank more alcohol this semester(consecutive weekends since term started!) than last semester when I had no class on friday and the slackest schedule ever.  It's much easier to drink after a stressful week and every week is a stressful week so every weekend I find myself with drinks in my hands.  Last night I had 3 pulls of Dr. McGillicutty's Peppermint stuff...it went down way too easy along with the 2 beers, 4 bacardi razz shooters, and a whiskey and coke...I'm not even gonna tell the time frame in which this was all accomplished.  

4.  Therapeutic communication.  After being tested on it last week it's all I use.  Basically if you ever come to me with a complaint or issue that's bothering you I'm going to talk to you in a "therapeutic manner" which will allow you to open up and tell me about it....Like you say "man I have a ton of homework and I can't keep up."  I will say..."How does that make you feel?"  or "What can you tell me about that"  shit like that...it's become a joke around here...any little complaint gets a therapeutic response.

5.  The "moon bounce."  this is probably the most awesome piece of workout equipment ever.  It's really called an AMT (adaptive motion trainer)  It's sort of like an eliptical but you can do every thing from stair stepping to "skiing"  It's intense because you actually have to make the pedal things move.  I call it a moon bounce because it kinda feels like one...

6.  I discovered Tropicana's strawberry-banana-orange juice.  It's probably been around for awhile but I just bought some and it is delicious.

7.  The list of reasons to never have children.  It's pretty self-explanatory but my Roomies and I come up with reasons of why a woman should never have kids or at least not have them until she can truly appreciate having a kid even though they may very well possess all the qualities on the list.  The list ranges from things like the obvious "giving birth to a child will hurt like a bitch" to "the child might be ugly."

8.  My sock compulsion.  I recently bought new socks...a 3 pack.  Well, now that I have these 3 pair of bright white socks I feel compelled to go out and replace my entire sock collection so they are all equally new.  I don't like having socks in different stages of wear.

9.  SPRING BREAK!  I am going to Florida with Danelle in 3 weeks!  I'm gonna lay around on the beach all day sippin what else but Pina coladas and reading the entire Gossip Girl series!

9.5.  I let slip that I am occasionaly called T-bag by my good friend back home and now E has picked it up as well...it's sort of comical in that when she calls me that we are most often in public surrounded by people who then turn their heads to figure out who on earth so innocently and nonchalantly says "come on T-bag, let's go."

10.  My summer dilemma.  I don't know what I am going to do for a job this summer.  I want to stay in Mankato.  BUT I can A. make more money at home by life guarding or working at the hospital and B. gain experience by working at the hospital again.  Mankato means I would have to find a new job if not a couple new ones.  I am torn because I really want to make money, but I kind of want to take the summer off from hospital type work because honestly this is my last "free summer."  I don't know what to do!

Well that's been the top ten in my life this last week...hope you enjoyed it!

James McAvoy

I absolutely love love love James McAvoy.  I liked him ever since I saw him in Wimbledon...now I know movie critics around the world probably snubbed that movie but I enjoy it very much.  It combines to things I love a lot...romantic comedy and wimbledon.  James' part is small but he makes you notice him!  He was great in Atonement.  I need to see the Last King of Scottland and Narnia.  I just watched Becoming Jane and again he was so good.  I'm not sure how I feel about that movie though.  It's sort of a love story in reverse.  Poor Jane.  BUT had she married we would probably never know Mr. Darcy or Elizabeth Bennett.  I highly recommend the film if you are single on valentine's day if you've ever fallen in love but knew you could never be with that person.  It was good but I'm a half glass full kinda person that thinks all movies with romance should end happy and together.  Yeah yeah yeah I hear you all already.  Anyway this post is about James McAvoy whom I will forever be a devout follower.  I can't wait for Penelope!

Uhg.

I am study challenged.  I just can't motivate myself.  Ok that's not true I can when the material is at least studyable(my new word).  I've had these kind of classes before.  There is just a ton of material to read through.  But it's not concrete things that you can make flashcards for or concepts that flow and you remember the how and why's.  This is the dumb stuff that no matter how many times you read through it it never seems to stick and every time you go back to re-read, it looks completely foreign.  It's the kind of material that you hope comes to you when you see the question because it is so iffy and kinda common sense stuff.  I feel completely unprepared for tomorrows test and I'm gonna basically wing it and rely on my memory/common sense skills.  I can not get through these 20 pages of notes without my mind wandering off to far away and sometimes inappropriate places...haha just kidding! but my mind does wander away.  In the last 2 hours I've made it through my notes once...hence me being challenged.  I wish I could just focus my mind but I think I have too much apathy at this point.  It's the first test, I'll just see how it goes and then I'll know how to prepare myself for the next one.  This is so the opposite of how the pharmacology test went...Next week I have to test out by giving three different shots!  The prospect of me with a needle in my hand and having to poke my friend is kinda freaking me out.  It never ends.

Outta control

Ahh the weekend.  It was grand.  I discovered a drink that I've been searching/waiting for.  Gin and Fresca.  Can't even taste the gin one little bit.  It goes down like fresca and for those of you who know me I don't really need much.  Well I had enough and last night was interesting to say the least....I won't go into details here but you can ask me about if we meet someday.  

In other news I survived my first pharmacology test on Friday with a high B.  I hate when people hype up tests and make them sound like they are impossible.  It's annoying when they say it was the hardest test they've ever taken.  After almost three years of college I've finally learned to just tune everyone out and form my own opinions.  I've finally figured out that most often tests are only hard if you don't know the information.  I don't think I've ever taken a test that was hard or unfair.  All the information is stuff that was taught to us.  They said this first semester of nursing was the hardest and blah blah blah.  I'm not saying it isn't hard by any means but just like anything before this it's all a matter of organization.  Yeah the first week I was completely overwhelmed but now that the first tests are here I'm starting to get into my groove.  It certainly is a lot of work but I feel ok about it.  

A Knight's Tale was on television today.  I still can't believe about Heath Ledger.  I'm not gonna say I was his biggest fan but I enjoyed his work.  In a way this kinda felt like "princess diana" of our generation.  For some reason this one really hit home.

Ok, well I can barely keep my eyes open here...

Random but funny apparel

If I were wealthy I would by these shirts.

Reunited and it feels so good!

Riley got to see his big(er) brother Dalton last weekend and they were both ecstatic!

Ahhh nostalgia

Target is absolutely amazing.  I could live there.  Anyway, they currently are selling lunch trays.  I bought a pink one.

 

That's a meatless chicken patty I'm about to enjoy, by the way.  They are actually pretty good.

This brought me right back to elementary school.  Ironically my homework for that night brought me right back there as well.  I had to add, subtract, multiply, and divide fractions.  When's the last time you had to do that.  I never ever expected I would have to do that kind of math in college.  I wasn't good at math in elementary school and I am not that much better now.  Uhg and we had a quiz over it on Friday.  I couldn't believe it.  But it was more annoying than difficult I do admit.  It made me really think how great elementary school is.  I wish I could have appreciated it more when I was there.  Savored recess, the fun activities that tricked you into learning, music class, gym, art.  Elementary school was the shit.  

Brrrrrr

So, I realize that I am currently living in Mankato Minnesota and it's the middle of winter.  I also realize that winter equals cold.  I am not one to usually complain about it being cold because duh! it's winter and it gets cold.  However, I was unprepared for the shock of yesterday's chill factor.  I don't think I have ever been so cold in my whole entire life.  Really.  I had about a 4 min walk from the orange lot to the Taylor center.  I literally almost started crying as soon as I stepped inside the door.  I'm talking knives piercing body cold.  My ears hurt so so so bad and I'm pretty sure my face fell off 50 yards behind.  I may as well have not worn gloves.  The wind was absolutely ridiculous.  Granted I didn't wear a hat.  I almost grabbed one too and was pissed.  Anyway,  I like having four seasons.  I appreciate the different seasons when they come.  But, I absolutely hate these frigid Jan. and Feb. days.  I heard a ridiculous rumor that this weekend it will get to be like 30-40 below with windchill.  Even though I like having four seasons I wouldn't mind living in a more milder climate where winter is tolerable.  I'm thinking New Mexico, Arizona, Texas, Southern California, or Florida.  I may just possibly contemplate one of those destinations after graduation.

P.S. I Love You

I very much enjoyed this film!

It was touching.  And rarely rarely does this ever happen but I much preferred the movie to the book.  Crazy I know.  I didn't cry through the entire thing like it was rumored most of the female audience does.  By the way, there were several men in the audience.  We concluded they were all getting laid afterward.  I would never force my boyfriend to see that movie, but it would say a lot about our relationship if he decided to see it.  I think the title sort of scares guys away, and I'm sure after reading the synopsis they would have decided it was cheesy as all hell.  But it was done well I think.  It dealt with a sensitive subject.  It seemed real to me.  It shows the desperate feeling of being alone when your "soulmate" for lack of a better term, is gone and how to find the hope and faith that you'll be ok and maybe love again.  That sounds really cheesy I know.  Ultimately it's probably a girl movie...but I would love to know a guy who saw it and thought it wasn't silly or foolish.

p.s. the soundtrack is really good...

I have homework...before the term starts?

You know what blows?  People studying abroad in foreign countries and me reading their blogs and feeling like I was there then realizing I'm in Mankato Minnesota with legitimate homework and the semester hasn't even started yet.  

HA! I'm just kidding.  I'm not that bitter and jealous.  Your blogs are a treat and will serve as a wonderful study break throughout the semester.  But back here I really do have homework, BUT it's, um...REAL homework?  You know the kind that you will be applying to your job type homework!  This is it folks!  I am learning how to do things that I will be doing for the REST of my life!  I'm learning to do things that will bring me a decent income and immense satisfaction.  I am learning my CAREER!  Kinda scary, but exciting.  We had a meeting t

oday for the nursing program.  I was assigned homework and have three quizzes next Friday(mind you the semester doesn't start 'til Monday).  I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and may be in over my head these first few weeks but I am confident it will sort itself out.  I spent 150 dollars on a stethoscope, scrubs, and a lab coat.  700 dollars on my books(and I can't sell them back as they "will be life long resources").  This is the only downside right now...the program is sort of costly.  Despite this homework assignment I will still find time this weekend to improve my guitar hero skills, see a movie, and maybe have a few drinks.  It may be my last weekend to do so for a very long time...

In other news, I watched 3:10 to Yuma yesterday and quite enjoyed it.  I found it to be kind of tense in that you didn't know who was gonna make it and how far they would get...I hate that.

This is my favorite quote...it's probably only funny if you've seen it...

Butterfield: Why the hell didn't you do somethin'?

Charlie Prince: They had a lot of weapons, Mister - and they were shootin' bullets.

I really like his outfit as well.  Even if he was a bad guy.

Back to School

Mostly it feels good to be back.  Sioux Falls provides for me a nice place where I can completely relax and recharge my batteries.  I love that Sioux Falls is not a typical "college town."  Yes Augie and USF are there but they don't dominate the population.  I don't worry about my appearance as much at home.  I don't worry about who might see me and who might not.  I like the fact that I don't drive around town desperately trying to see every driver and whether or not I recognize them.  I love being at school but at the same time there feels to be too much pressure.  I am literally surrounded by thousands of my peers.  Every which way I look there is someone around who is my age.  I can't help but feel we are all looking at each other and judging.  I know it's weird and probably just me.  It just feels like we're all in this competition.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel very much on display when coming back to school.  It's amazing the change I feel once I pull of 169 onto Riverfront.  Long gone is the relative anonymity of Sioux falls and in an instant this flash of self-consciousness races through my mind.  I push it to the back of my mind and remind myself that you don't have to change a thing.  However, it still sticks in the back of my mind and causes me to be much more aware of my surroundings.  When I'm walking to class or to my car I make sure I know 7 people in advance coming toward me.  No one takes me by surprise.  By doing this I can decide who warrants me making eye contact or just looking down and scurrying past.  Just once I would like to be able to walk down a hall and not notice anyone.  I am forever swiveling my head this way and that I see everyone who sees me.  I have this overwhelming need to please people.  I can't stand it when I think someone may be mad or annoyed with me.  At the same time though I have no problem stating how or what I feel if it's a legitimate defense.  Sometimes though I think back and feel that I may have overreacted.  It's really hard to just be yourself.  I try every day to just be me.  It's so hard though because I am easily swayed by my surroundings and the people around me.  I feel like a slightly different "me" in Mankato than in Sioux Falls.  I guess as long as I am not completely changing who I am it's ok.  Ultimately I think this feeling comes from going to a large school.  I see new people every day.  You don't know where you stand.  There is less familiarity or at least you have to work harder at becoming familiar. 

That may or may not be clear but I don't care I'm sick of writing about it.

Guitar Hero...a threat to safety.

Who knew guitar hero could cause the city of sioux falls mayhem.  Ok maybe not mayhem but at least summon a good portion of the cities finest policeman to be on the lookout for a bearded man in a white ford escort holding a young driver at gunpoint...Our story begins with me extending an invitation to A to come over to my house for some casual drinking and guitar hero playing.  A's sister drove A and her friend E who has a beard.  They made a pit stop at Hy-vee to get some tonic water and limes for the gin they already had.  Once reaching my house the drinks were made.  Of the 5 people at the house, only A and E consumed alcoholic beverages.  Some guitar hero was played and the trio was here for maybe 45 minutes when A's sister gets a call on her cell from a restricted number.  She thought it was a prank call.  It had something to do with how her license plate was called in for a threat to safety...anyway she didn't buy it and was freaked out and hung up.  2 seconds later my house phone rang and we all kinda freaked out.  I answered it and it is A's mom asking if A and A's sister were there.  I said yes and she said that there were cops at the door asking about the car and how there was a call from someone about a threat to safety.  As I handed the phone over to A's sister, I heard our front door open and footsteps from above.  A and E scrambled to hide their G&T's while A's sister and I headed up stairs.  As we reached the top, 4 cops are suddenly walking through my kitchen shinning their flashlights this way and that.  These 4 immediately headed downstairs.  I go to the door where my brother is standing letting in two more cops looking slightly bemused.  One headed into the kitchen and started interrogating A's sister.  G and I got cornered by a lady officer who calmly but seriously asked us questions.  I was asked if I was in the car, who all was here at my house, who the driver was, and how E was connected to A and A's sister.  Finally, after her questioning she explained that a call was put in to 911 about how a girl was forced into a white ford escort by a bearded man and held at gun point.  The reality of the situation is that E was in the passenger seat rocking out with his guitar hero guitar...

Great in 08

1.  Get back on previous eating regime...HEALTHY more fruits and vegetables and little or no meat.

2.  Get back in work-out mode.  "MAKE the CUT" (workout and diet) is a must for February and March.

3. Consume 64oz. of water every day. (how cool would that be to say for a whole year you for sure had 64oz. of water every day?!)

4.  Be more outgoing (give a simple "hi" to someone you pass in the hall...you have no idea how ridiculously difficult that is for me.) 

5.  Spend wisely.  (probably the most difficult).

6. Convince Dad to go to Florida over Spring Break (this one must be broached carefully but tackled asap! March is not far away)

7.  STUDY! STUDY! STUDY! (The nursing program is no joke and will probably kick my ass this first semester...for once I want to start the semester off with guns blazing and ace those first tests so I don't have to play catch up and bust my figurative balls all semester).

Looks like 2008 has the potential to be GREAT! starting tomorrow as I did not workout today, eat any fruits or vegetables, consume 64oz of water, spent foolishly and bought a wii, didn't bring up the subject of florida, and haven't looked through the Pharmacology book even though I said I would over break.  TOMORROW January 3rd begins GREAT IN 08!

WEEEEEE!!!

We bought a Wii!  Me and Garrett bought a Wii!  It will be here on Friday!  I am pretty excited!  If you can't tell!  

January 1st 2008

Well, it's that time of year.  The beginning.  I can't help but get caught up in all the hooplah about the new year being a time to "start new" or make resolutions, or think that this year "will be the year!"  The year for what I might add?  Well, that is just it.  It's exciting to think that this year "could be the year!"  It's fun to anticipate what we know will be happening or what we hope will happen.  A year is an awfully long time.  So much can happen to a person in one year.  People become different people in a year's time.  There is a generous amount of room in one year.  Half of it could be absolutely splendid while the other half can be downright miserable.  Most often when a tragedy of sorts strikes, the year becomes blemished as "a bad year."  Yes, a good chunk of 2007 was unkind to me and as much as I would like to say that 07 was simply awful I just can't.  I don't feel right tainting the whole year as bad.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm not entirely sure a bad year can exist...for me anyway.  It's far too easy to focus on the negativity of a year.  We forget about all the good.  While the worst may of happened there was still plenty of good.  A good portion of 2007 was undoubtedly unkind, but the last day of 07 was one of the more fun nights of the entire year and certainly one of the top ten in my life.  This one night has to compete with many awful nights but just one night can make all the difference.  I didn't have a "bad year"-I had a less than ideal one.  In all honesty we're all gonna have one of those years.  Mine was just a bit harsh and much sooner than expected.  I am so very thankful for all the people who love and care about me.  You people have let me reflect back on 2007 with bittersweetness instead of complete bitterness.  I do hope though that 2008 can be looked back on with a little more sweetness.